4 Month Letter

My baby you are 4 months already. I won't say time flies because everyone says it (because it's true!). I held our friend's baby who is only 11 days old this week and already it was hard to remember holding you being that small (and light! haha!). It's scary. Some day I'm going to watch you walk away, move out, have a career, get married (gulp!) and live your own life away from my arms. Sigh. It will be good. That is what I am raising you for. Not to keep you forever but to release you with joy knowing I have raised you (and by God's grace) to be a gentleman who not only loves others but loves God and shows it in your love for others.
But as for current day...
You are getting chubbier by the day! Your Daddy and I LOVE it. You're still all smiles and not your laugh is taking form mostly in short HAH's.
You rolled over yesterday for the first time from your tummy to your back. I admit I neglected giving you tummy time until I realized that you need it to have opportunity to learn things like rolling and crawling. Oops. My bad. But I'm sure you'll recover quickly you're a pretty keen boy.

We get together with some other Mommy friends of mine once a week and go for walks and have mommy workouts while you guys are sleeping or watching us from the floor. We also go to a mommy meetup and are meeting new mom's and babies your age once a week as well and that's good fun except you tend to get sleepy half way through every time. But you amaze me and the other mom's with your calm demeanor and fall asleep in my arms of suck your thumb while I put you in the wrap.

You are now in your own room in a big crib and it took a few tries not turning around and getting stuck but now you mostly stay in the middle and I don't run in to check you a bajillion times "just in case". You're also sleeping way longer at night (HOORAY!) and I only get up once maybe twice a night to feed you! I love this. Your feedings in the day time are now 4 hours apart but you still nap almost as often as before, for an hour. Exactly. Every time. You are like clockwork baby. I appreciate it :)

We love you more and more each day. I still can't believe you're my little guy sometimes because being your mom feels so normal like I've been your mom my entire life not just yours. I guess I have been I just didn't know it til you were born. Does that make sense?  Also you look adorable sucking your thumb while you stare at me. Like right now. So I'm going to save this so I can cuddle you. I love you with my whole heart.